Quiet Reservations

7:30am: I just put a whole lot into an email, and I feel nothing short of exhausted.

Now comes the part where I wait and feel exposed until something comes back.

6:26am: 'cause I thought it was a cool exercise
Instructions: Open your music player and set it to shuffle. write down the first line of lyrics from each of the first 25 songs that come up. let people guess, and then underline or strike out songs as they are correctly identified.

I chose not to include instrumental tracks because...that's kind of pointless. I also cheated a bit and skipped duplicate bands, because it's more fun that way.

1. You're going down and it feels good, but you ain't wearing what you should
2. This is how I'm supposed to feel? This is how I'm supposed to feel about what I do
3. I can feel it coming in the air tonight, I've been waiting for this moment for all my life
4. I'm never coming back, I'm never giving in, I'll never be the shine in your spit
5. Slow burn decay nothing beats a fade
6. In the face of grave defeat I heard cries for mercy
7. Racey days help me through the hopeless haze
8. Change will come Change is here Love fades out Then love appears
9. I see a bad moon rising, I see trouble on the way
10. Heavy decibels are playing on my guitar, we got vibrations coming up from the floor
11. Whenever I'm alone with you, you make me feel like I am whole again
12. To pretend no one can find the fallacies of morning rose, Forbidden fruit, hidden eyes, curtises that I despise in me
13. Boxed up all of her favorite things sold the rest at a rainy yard sale
14. Fall is here, hear the yell, Back to school, ring the bell
15. Get on that gospel train for my lord is coming soon
16. Recollect me darling raise me to your lips, Two undernourished egos four rotating hips
17. He said you're just as boring as everyone else, When you tut and you moan And you squeal and you squelch
18. You sleep better when you're You eat better when you're You sing better when you're
19. My love's an ice-cold latte and it's running down yer shirt
20. Lookin' At the world go Trying to understand Electric wind blowin' like A demon fan
21. help yourself if you know why you came, 'cause if you need help she says...
22. Tarzan wasn't a ladies' man He'd just come along and scoop 'em up under his arm Like that, quick as a cat in the jungle
23. I watch my neighbors next door, the Mr. and Mrs. At War
24. I get up around seven Get outta bed around nine And I don't worry about nothin' no Cause worryin's a waste of my...time
25. Suspicion Is Your Name Your Honesty to Blame Put Dignity to Shame Dishonor

8:27pm: My grandmother also gave me two books today. A copy of Through the Looking Glass from 1899 (1899!) and Alice in Wonderland (not sure which edition, there is no year listed). A few minutes of googling found a picture of it though:

http://www.stellabooks.com/stockimages/566887.JPG

How cool is that?


Also, I love IKEA...but also hate it with a great passion. I was putting together my new table earlier, and part of it came pre-assembled...but they drilled some of the holes at the wrong height, so I couldn't screw in one of the legs properly. I duct taped it on though, and it seems to be sturdy enough for general use. I don't think I'd trust it with much weight, though.

2:36pm: Table!
My grandmother is visiting (from England) for six weeks, staying with my mom. They both came by today to see my new apartment, and they brought me an Ikea table and four chairs! Now I just need to figure out where to put them, and my place will start looking more like someone lives here.

3:33am: You know how songs remind you people, and can be hard to listen to for a while? Then you eventually get over it, and the song recalls memories more than it actually affects you? Does anyone else have a particular song that they never got over?

For me it's Don't you (forget about me).

3:41am: Since I don't seem to do real updates anymore...

You are Stinkfist. Wow, your very adventurous and
daring, especially in your sex life. You'll try
just most things that would make the average
person gag. Most people really don't understand
you though. Oh well, More power to you.


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I think this quiz is pretty retarded. All the questions are basically the same, and if you know anything about Tool the responses aren't exactly subtle.

Also, the song Stinkfist isn't really about sex. It's a metaphor, fuckwad.

I was having such a great night, and now I just want to go to sleep.

3:28pm: Only 10 questions..?

Naturally Smart You're a naturally smart person. Your intelligence comes to you naturally, rather than from instruction - and you are better with applied or more real-world things... which comes in handy, here in the real world. 10% applied intelligence 60% natural intelligence

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3:29am: Recently, Raquel got a bill for $0.18 from her school. I got that beat!

Bell sent me my first internet bill this week. I left it for a day before getting around to opening it, and when I sat down to pay it online I was delighted to see that the amount due was $0.00.

That's right, they sent me a bill for NOTHING.


That made my day.

6:00pm:
Big Boo-tay!


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3:20pm: That should read, "North of Wellesley, on BAY".

Go to Bay, not Bloor. :)

12:34pm: Birthday plans!
Ok, here is the official plan.

Friday, October 28th - Fox's Den, 9pm. It's just North of Wellesley, on Bloor.

Everyone is welcome!


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11:45pm: Anyone want to do something on Friday? It's my birthday and I want to do ... something. As opposed to nothing.

9:33am: Today is moving day. I'm more tired than excited, but it's going to be good.

I won't have internet access at my new place until Wednesday, but I can still be reached by phone (416-697-9772) if anyone needs me.

6:51pm: I have been sick for two and a half days now, and it sucks. I want it to stop because there are things I have to do.

Like move. Hurray for moving!

I was worried that I wouldn't have internet access for a million years, because I put off calling Bell for so long. But I called them today and they are connecting me on Wednesday. It's fast because I'm not getting a land line, which means they don't need to send someone to my apartment to essentially flick a switch. I can survive for three days without the internet...or, um, I can use the libraries at school.

I miss my kitty, and look forward to getting her back from my mom.

I have no other news.

12:02pm: Tagged by the jvw.
Write 20 random facts about yourself, and then tag as many people as minutes it took you to write this:

Start time: 11:52 am

1. I spend way too much time thinking about NERO, while not at NERO.
2. I am (almost) always listening to music.
3. I am moving Oct 1, to my very own apartment!
4. I read the Da Vinci Code recently. It was kind of cool, but not as awesome as people say.
5. I haven't played bass for at least two weeks.
6. School is already making me super busy.
7. I sitll only have four courses for this term. This is a minor problem.
8. I want to do some kind of graduate work after this degree.
9. I am not ready to exist in the real world, with a real job.
10. I am not very good at relationships.
11. I download an estimated 4-6 GB of data each week.
12. My favourite kind of cookie is the Double-Stuf Fudgee-o.
13. All of my socks are black, but almost none of my underwear is.
14. I'm decently good at online poker, but don't have the money to play for real.
15. I really want a new tattoo.
16. I can get close to solving a Rubik's Cube by rote.
17. I still don't have a Canadian passport.
18. I own a t.v. but never turn it on (literally).
19. I am the king of procrastination.
20. I will eat eggs for breakfast today.

End time: 12:01pm

Tagged:
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dragonfiremage
nefernetka
missvondahl
bloodandfire13
uberroomie
mishieru_sama
rpriske
acidicjew

6:21pm: Why is www.philosophy.com a website for skincare products?

11:00pm: I hate that I haven't been able to sign into MSN since Friday morning. Wtf is with that? It works for everyone else, but consistently times out when I try to connect.

5:59pm: It's almost time to leave North York...
Tonight is my last night of housesitting in North York...and I'm about ready to claw my eyes out. There have been a handful of pleasant moments here, but they have been greatly overshadowed by the unfortunate circumstances of this week. I won't trouble you with a complete list, but a breakup and the stress of restarting school (and scrambling to complete my course load) have been more than enough on their own. I'm also sick of these shitty Dell speakers at my mom's place. I brought my computer but not my 5.1 speakers...and I've been regretting that all week long. I can't wait to get home and listen to music properly.

I really hate that money's been such an issue lately. I don't need a lot to be happy, but between the cost of moving, restarting school (which means both book buying and lack of time to find a good job) I don't really have much left for the few things I want to spend money on (primarily NERO, though I really would like to buy some new clothes). I feel like I shouldn't complain too much about this because I do get a lot of help from my family...and I do some work to help pay for things, but it doesn't seem to be enough.

So anyway...the breakup thing. It was entirely my initiative, and in the end has been unsatisfying to both of us. I've found it very difficult to articulate the motivation behind it, and that's led to a lot of frustration and confusion. And if the situation wasn't unpleasant enough, De's friends have of course been rallying to her side. I want her to feel better as much as they do, but it's particularly unpleasant to be villified by people who don't understand the situation (and I know they don't - how can they, when I barely do?).

One person even went so far as to say that they knew right from the start that she was too good for me. That really bothered me because I feel that this person barely knows me - if at all - now, and definitely didn't know me in the slightest capacity (beyond sight recognition, if that counts) before De and I started dating. It normally doesn't bother me when people don't like me for a good reason...I've learned to not care about that. But when the person doesn't know me, and has only a limited set of actions and second-hand information to go on, it does. Espescially when this is someone held in such high esteem by someone involved (in this case De).

A little part of me is pretty angry about this, and anger isn't something I feel often. Of course her friends are going to flock to her side to comfort her, and naturally they will adopt her point of view. But I don't see why this needs to be an issue with divided sides in the first place. I know De doesn't hate me after this, so why should her friends? And who are they to judge me, anyway? Even if they had all the relevant information, who are they? No one, that's who.

Fuck, now I really am angry.

8:51pm: I won't be homeless!
I finally found a good place to live for October! The last place (which would have been awesome) didn't work out because the guy was really adamant about no pets. I ended up calling and explaining the situation. He appreciated that I told him, but the owner of the house doesn't want pets and the guy I was dealing with was just a rental agency. So ... no 1 bedroom with dishwasher for me.

Instead, I found a place on Isabella. It's a big bachelor apartment, with new everything. I've been living basically in one room (at various locations) since I first moved out for university, so it being a bachelor isn't a concern at all. It will be grand. And having no roommates will be a wonderful thing. Not that I dislike my current ones (they are good people), but having my own space will be superior.

And it's walking distance from school!

10:59am: They could've found a cooler picture for this..

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10:28pm:
Which File Extension are You?


This isn't me at all. And where did it get exploited from? Because I will eat food that's a little burnt? Screw you, lame quiz!

On a brighter note, Raquel provided me with a .pdf of Harry Potter and the Title of Book Six. That and Oz should keep me occupied while I am stuck house-sitting in North York for a week and a half.

11:46pm: After walking with De all over the annex (in circles, twice!) today I found a really awesome apartment today, available for Oct 1. It's a basement 1 bedroom, but it's got a lot of space and has high ceilings. Also, it has a *dishwasher* - how awesome is that? The landlord and I were chatting and he's pretty easy going...but he asked me if I had any pets. I was in agreeable mode, so I was sort of acknowledging and agreeing with everything he said so he'd like me, and before I really realized what I'd said I told him I didn't have a dog or cat. So now, if I get the place, I have a choice to make. I can try and come clean and hope he lets me have it with a cat, or I can make up some elaborate lie about how I aquired a cat since talking with him and can't move in without it. Or, I can not say anything and have a conflict when he eventually discovers that I have a cat. I know he can't legally force me to move out, but it would be nice to not have a conflict with my landlord.

The prospect of making up a story makes me feel pretty pathetic, and I'm worried that if I tell him about the cat up front I won't get the really awesome place. Did I mention it's on Beverley, *just* South of College? It doesn't get better than that, location-wise. I'm torn between the prospects of maintaining self-respect and having to return to apartment hunting.

I should go to bed, so I can be awake to help people move tomorrow.

4:33pm: ok, I dinally did it.
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9:47pm: Back from GenCon!
I'm tired, so this is going to be really brief.

I made top 8 at the L5R world championships, which is very cool. I know I could have won both of the games of my top 8 match with a tiny bit more luck (I didn't misplay, having gone over it a billion times in my head), but if I have to lose I'd rather it be that way as opposed to not having a chance at all. I was the top Lion clan player, which netted me additional loot. Some of it's going straight to eBay, because the trip was expensive.

De's on her way over, which is great. My room is really messy, but at least I'll get to see her...between essays, exams, and then GC, it's been a while.

That's all for now.

5:03pm: Last night, I went rollerblading for the first time since I broke my ankle (which was last summer). The good news is that it didn't give out, but the bad news is that it was a little painful, and not very strong. I'm hoping this is something that can be overcome with repitition and building strength, rather than something that's going to be a hindrance for the rest of my life.